Kung Fu Kitten

Petrified, she dared not let one tiny squeak escape her lips.

His clammy hand was wrapped around her throat, telling her resistance was useless.

He was preparing to do it again. Violate a trust, destroy a young girl.

Silently, she let the tears burn her face as they fell, the icy grip tightened around her.

His other hand squeezed her inner right thigh, slowly making its journey further up her dress.

Excavated. The girl started to gag, but the probing continued and he began to crush her throat.

Her eyes widened in terror as she heard him unzip his trousers.

Futility. She resisted, but she was too tiny to fight his overpowering presence.

Soon, the anguish around her neck echoed with the anguish of penetration.

She bled furiously as he relentlessly thrusted with violence, overcome with primal lust.

At long last, relief came only as the young girl lost consciousness in a sea of black.

Awakened by the sound of running water, she saw the midday sun moved into twilight.

Her loins throbbed with excruciating pain. Mind hazy, but clearly she saw panic in his eyes.

Shock had set in, she couldn't speak, walk, let alone stand.

Tenderly, he took her in his arms and whisked her down to three flights of steps.

Fear was sinking in his bones, guilt was hovering above his head, she trembled against his chest.

She slipped in and out of darkness, only catching glimpses of her surroundings.

They traveled from the stairwell, to the bus stop, into a clinic, and back to his apartment.

Overwhelmed, she slept for two days. Awoke again, and her head was spinning.

Carefully, she stood up. She ached as she took little steps alongside the bed.

She sat down again, feeling drained. Her six year old mind tried to grasp the events passed.

Realization sunk in.

Asphyxiated in shame.

Panic-stricken she sat and sobbed.

Enraged she balled her tiny fists.

Disturbed, defeated, she feels lost.

looking for kindness
i found your smile
looking for comfort
i found your embrace
looking for understanding
i found it in your eyes
in you i see
what it means to feel
perfect harmony
my mind is at peace
my heart is at rest
for it is you that i've found
to be the best
so take this ring
as a token of our sacred love
for i have been blessed
by the Almighty above
with you beside me
i no longer run
us joining in spirit
together as one...

Friendship is a funny word
People have different definitions for friendship
Some have a plethora of friends
Some have a handful of true friends
I thought we were true friends
When I need you, how can you walk away from me?
Tell me, how does it feel to turn the knife inside of me?
You say this, you say that, but words mean nothing
Soy como una roca, palabras no me tocan
Your actions say you want nothing to do with me
I"m tired of waiting, hoping & crying
Te llore todo un rio, ahora llorame un mar
I'm tired of feeling sorrowful, tired of the grief
Wondering if this sorrow and grief will ever let me go?
El dolor se me sigue consumiendo, pero todavia sigo asi con dolor
I know that everything must come to an end
I realize that nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
All my hopes have been dashed, all my wishes crumbled,
All my dreams have fallen down...
Hoping that someone comes around soon...
Somebody save me...i don't care how you do it...just save me....

Save me from myself....


LX 02/03/04