Kung Fu Kitten

Just to be one of the cool kids
One who gets all the attention
Just to be one of the cool kids
One who has only 1 dimension
Just to be one of the cool kids
Gladly I accept this submission

I want to be the girl all the guys like
I'll buy the clothes and the make up
I want to be the girl all the guys like
Maybe I woud better off as a C cup?
I want to be the girl all the guys like
I'll eat a little bit now, later throw up

Just to be one of the cool kids
One who gets all the attention
Just to be one of the cool kids
One who has only 1 dimension
Just to be one of the cool kids
Gladly I accept this submission

I want to be the guy all the girls like
I'll go to the mall and buy the clothes
I want to be the guy all the girls like
Maybe talk about bitches and hoes?
I want to be the guy all the girls like
I'll be hella dope once I can bust flows

Just to be one of the cool kids
One who gets all the attention
Just to be one of the cool kids
One who has only 1 dimension
Just to be one of the cool kids
Gladly I accept this submission

I don't fit your ideal, so now I'm imperfect
I speak my mind, so now I'm obnoxious
I choose my own path, so now I'm lost
I don't kiss your feet, so now I'm useless
I act human, so now I'm not even that
I am my own person, so now I'm empty

Tell me what you don't like about me
Why is it so damned hard to accept me
What is it that I'm unable to see
Or are you scared of who I might be

I do what I feel is right for only me
I don't try to impose what I believe

You don't want to know who I have become
You wish I was a part of what you make believe
You loath the fact that I can think for myself
You don't like the fact I can see through you
You pray that someday I'll squeeze into your box
You hate me more as I find out who I am

In your eyes, only a hurtful glance
Make this right with a second chance
Deep down, all I want is acceptance
But this is who I am, no repentance

In the past I have asked for your guidance
But no more, your the one who's misguided

I told myself to build a wall, so I would never be hurt.
Little did I know that you would find a way in.
You came around and I was floating in a blissful delusion.
Which came to a halting stop, leaving me to lick my wounds.
I fell hard from what seemed to be a 10 story drop.
I'm suprised I didn't end up shattered into thousands of pieces.
They say what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger.

If I'm stronger then explain why I feel vulnerable.
Why does it hurt to speak your name just even to think of you?
Why am I still in pain, aching all over?
What is it about you that makes me go numb?
I'm trapped, I'm troubled, I'm slowly committing suicide.
I can't break free from the feelings I have for you, I'm losing my mind.
I'm asking for nothing but pain, by asking you to love me.

I cried last night. Not because I was in physical pain or because I remembered something very sad. I cried because I was...

alone

Not the kind of alone where you feel sorry for yourself because you lack a significant other. Not even because I feel as though no one understands me. I felt devoid of something more than something that simple. I was alone because of the realization...

I am not who I thought I was

It's a strange type of feeling, not knowing who you are. Many people don't realize that they don't even know themselves, but they turn out just fine. I swore to God himself that I knew who I was. It turns out...

I lied

I lied to everyone. Family, friends, God, and myself. It doesn't seem so bad to some people, but I never thought of myself as some people. I always thought...

I was me

With that taken away in one moment of reflection, I can't bare my soul or bear the sight of myself in the mirror. I'm an empty shell, trying to find a way to refill...

then again, or maybe no more